Monday, September 04, 2006
The fusion of that simplicity yet playful face is something that I will never ever forget. The way you walked to the way you smiled, I can imgaine me and you together, maybe one day. Everytime I stare into space, that face never fails to appear. Your face without make-up, yet I have fallen wildly in love with. Your smile light up my world and your laughter liven my world. Something which I can never ever in this lifetime forget.
I saw one thing last night, something that distracted me the whole night and that is the photo. Thoughts collided together in the right place and I finally got the complete picture of the whole thing. After months of thinking and thinking, maybe it is time I understand the fact that this not even competition anymore, it is a choice that you have already made up, I will try but I will dissappear very slowly soon
when you have made yourself clear.
I could see how compatible you guys are actually snd that I am the real loser in this whole thing, partly beacuse I still can't pluck up my courage to confess. Things that require courage to deal with are things that you have to make decisions and a wrong move means there is no turning back. The happiness in your faces I could see clearly and I know deep down that I have just lost out by that one step. I don't really know what to do or is there even anything that I can do.
Why must it always be like this? Even my closest of friends is also in the plight as me.WHY??? Is it really fated to be like this or is it that I did not take my opportunities well? Maybe one day when you find out, you will never talk to me again, I can't predict yet and I don't really care. But if I were to give up on you, it will be because I love you too much. But that's when I am convinced that he loves you more than I do, only then that I can bring myself to walk away. But be convinced that this very flame will burn and provide the warmth you need now and always.
Still stuck in my mind, now and always....
11:31 PM