Saturday, December 16, 2006
Mistake
I thought I had grown up, I had managed to understand and figure out the confusion of everything. I thought I was strong, I try time and again to make myself not so dependent on anything but somehow I have totally failed.
I don't know whether it is a good or bad thing. It frightens me so much that I dared not think about it at times. I realised that it was not me that had become stronger, it was someone's else strength that held my already dissipated soul in place all along. I have cleverly deceived myself into beliving that I had already grown out of my shell, that I would have the power to overcome all odds.
Now I realised my folly, my mistake but I do not really know what to do anymore. I am tired out trying and failing all the time, it wears me out, there is a limit to everything. I hope the day never comes when my last bit of extra strength decide to walk out on me.
5:52 AM