Thursday, December 21, 2006
Rain Rain Go Away
I can't stand the weather anymore. The rain seems to be just pouring on forever, feeling sad because I have been bored for too long and because I have thought just too much for the past few days. The more I think, the more frustrated I get. Thoughts seem to pile up higher and higher, but evrything seems not accesible at all.
Rain pouring down, lengthening the distance from the end, giving me time to recollect everything. I just can't figure out the next step to anything. Could feel myself losing grip, the tighter my grip the faster it is just quietly slipping away. Want to say everything out loud but don't know how, want to hold on forever, but am afraid, want to make it true but seems confusing enough.
Later will be training, will go down and do my best. All seems hopeless but I have learnt not to give up anymore, think whatever you all want, don't bother telling me anymore.
Missing just goes on....
9:51 PM