Sunday, January 28, 2007
Important as you are.
Something more important than the most important thing in this world. It started off with a different tone but now it is deeper and something I can't really describe. All I know is that I want to hold on forever without letting go. I dare not think about the future but will treasure the present. Still scared that one day it will all disappear and I will be back to where I started off. Appearing at the darkest part of my life, the light was sufficient to make me have a little more courage than usual. Don't contemplate anymore, just keep walking.
9:56 PM
Friday, January 26, 2007
Knots tie hearts together. Fate outline the paths for everyone. Believing in destiny, letting fate bring you to the supposed ending, no longer hoping. Last dream, to win in the Nationals. Make it happen somehow.
4:19 AM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Deception is key
How long can he continue putting on this act? Deceiving everyone in this world except himself? Does anyone understand how cruel this feeling is, inflicting pain on every part of his already fragile heart. No one could see through him, he lets everyone have their way, cause silly remarks can't make him angry anymore, can't even make him feel anything at all.
Why is this way full of obstacles? He wants answers to everything, he has got so much to tell anyone, words just can't spill out. He motivates himself, trying to make himself believe everything will just turn out fine. Certain things just get more and more cloudy. The sky is never clearing up.
He is already using his very last reserve of strength to hold on, carefully concealing the cracks that are dying to pop out and expose those ugly scars to the rest of the world. In people's eyes, he seems so perfect, wait till you know the whole truth. One day if he fails and all comes crumbling down, he will have to make the hardest choice in his life, because things have just got more complicated than ever. Tears of a broken heart seems to never stop flowing, wells around the eyes before trickling down slowly, moving down your cheeks, so cold it feels until you finally taste it, the saltiness making you remember how bad you feel. How he wishes that one day, when he wakes up, this nightmare will come to an end because he can't hold on anymore longer, just too tired inside. But that hope is slowly vanishing because hope doesn't exist for him anymore.
5:04 AM
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Motivation comes from inside. What an important lesson I have learnt.
Will make good use of it, falling and picking yourself up is the process of getting forward.
Everything is just going to turn out right.
11:54 PM
